Having a bit of a down day today... Don't really know why, just one of those days I guess. I don't like feeling like this though, it reminds me of stuff I've put behind me and forgotten. Plus it always seems so much worse at night... I'm sure I'll be right as rain tomorrow morning. Though, I do have a fairly important music exam tomorrow afternoon... So maybe not?
Today started out okay... I drove to town, went to Starbucks (Caramel Latte as per <3), picked up my brother from his Taekwondo class then drove home. I then revised music for about 6 hours straight... Which made me realise that I shouldn't have taken music as I still don't remember anything!! Bad times.
I just started to feel really down and my stomach kept flipping when I thought about something "/ I don't really know if this is the best way to explain how I felt...? But that's kinda what it felt like to me. Maybe I'm just chatting shit... Who knows? I keep getting really bad headaches at the moment as well. In my temples. Sometimes it's so bad that it hurts to blink, chew, look at bright lights. I'm thinking I might just need new glasses. So I should probably get that sorted out...
I'm typing whatever comes into my head now :L Plus I'm distracted cos I'm listening to a friend playing guitar and singing on a stream thingy :) He writes all his own stuff, lyrics, melodies and guitar parts. He's pretty damn awesome as well... I'm pretty jealous that I can't be so good lol :P
Got a really late birthday present yesterday :D It was a little scrap book type thing of photos and saying that kind of represented my life. It's beautiful and means so much. So big thank you to Kath Tooth for that. I love it to bits.
After typing all this out... Things don't seem so bad. I have beautiful friends, exams nearly over, summer not far off... I have a habit of letting feelings get the better of me. It gets to a point where I can't appreciate anything else. Also, I don't like burdening other people with what I feel... It's a selfish thing to do. Everyone has their own problems to deal with without having to worry about mine. That doesn't mean I won't listen to other people, cos I like listening and trying to help... But no one I know will read this so it's fine.
I'm pretty tired now. I always seem to do this at night when I'm running out of steam... Maybe I should do it half way through the day? I don't know :P But anway, sweet dreams and all that shit xo
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