So I went back to college in September. Good in some ways, bad in others. No more lie in's = Sleepy and consequently, grumpy Liv. Also, I carried on all four subjects without dropping one so the work load is kinda huge. But on the plus side, I'm out of the house and seeing my friends which always makes me happy. I've also applied to Uni this week :D I applied for the drama and acting courses at Liverpool Institute of Performing Arts (LIPA), University of the Arts London, Central School of Speech & Drama, Anglia Ruskin (Cambridge) and Central Lancashire. Hopefully I'll hear back from them soon! It's kind of scary though... The thought of leaving home and all my friends is too big at the moment and I don't feel ready. I know in a couple of months I'll probably feel better, but it just seems too soon to be thinking about it :( And I'm worried about how I'd ever survive if I went to Uni... I'm terrible at cooking! If I come home from college early, I'll buy and sandwich just because I'm too lazy to try and make anything! How will I survive? But I don't know why I'm even thinking about that yet... I've got to get in first! LIPA audition 1500 for it's courses and only 34 get a place on the Acting course... Seeing as it's my first choice, I WILL be one of those 34. I'm going to work soooo ducking hard just to get an audition. But it'll be worth it in the end hopefully!
Losing weight wise, it was going well, to the point where the jeans I got to go back to college are now too big round the waist :) But I've been a bit lax of the last couple of weeks, eating lunch AND breakfast. Bad times. I've also become addicted to Cookie Crisp. I've even been having it when I get back from work at night... It's awful and I have zero self control.
BUT. I now have an incentive to get back on track :) I've gone down to 112 lbs and my parents booked a last minute holiday to Egypt the week before Christmas :D Which means I have to be skinny so I can wear bikini's and shorts and look okay in them. Also, I'll be able to swim everyday and eat as little as I want :) I'll just have to keep that up over Christmas :P There's no way I'm going back to college fat! I'd feel so much more comfortable if I was smaller... I mean, I feel a little better already, especially around my boyfriend. I've started wearing clothes I like rather than those that just fit me... I feel almost excited by the challenge of a deadline... I can feel myself slipping back into the mindset.
But I can't wait for the holiday just so I can get away from everything here... Leave it behind and forget about everything for a week :') I love Egypt so much as well. The sun, being in the middle of the desert, snorkelling, the people... I love everything about it. The count down starts now :)
Off on another residential course for Youth Music Voices on Tuesday :) I can't wait to spend four days just solidly singing and hanging out with friends. The results at the end of it will be even more amazing than last time because we've got new people joining us :) Also, it's being held at Aston Uni in Birmingham this time round so it's no where near as far away from home. We're performing in the Symphony Hall on Thursday night then Aston Uni on Friday afternoon. I cannot wait :D
On the subject of singing, me and Antony have started rehearsing for our repitoire pieces in Performance Studies. We decided on 'My Friends' & possibly 'Poor Thing' from Sweeny Todd :D We finally got 'My Friends' right on Friday with the harmonies and everything, it was such an amazing feeling and we sounded fairly good if I do say so myself :) Singing with Anto is awesome :)
For now, I'm going to leave it there and go watch 'Downton Abbey' <3 I'm sorry I haven't posted for so long, I didn't realise until I came back on here how much I missed having somewhere to rant and the security of it! So I'm back at it now and here to stay. Hope you're all well, lotta love Xo
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The whole moving out thing is a pretty big step. I'm looking at moving out in a few weeks with two other friends. It's exciting as hell, but also a bit daunting. I'm coming out of home whereas the other two are currently renting anyway, so they're pros and I'm a noob. It'll be a big adjustment, but I reckon I'll love the independance. I also can't cook, so I'll be living off 2-minute noodles until I get into the swing of things, ha.
ReplyDeleteAnd you're going to Egypt?! Totally jealous. Egypt is one place that's on my bucket list, I REALLY want to see the pyramids. They're a truly remarkable feat of human engineering and shizz, so they're definitely a must-see for me.
I hope you get into the course you applied for as well, best of luck.
And I know this is a really late comment, but stil - good to see you back.